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Stephanie
19 January 2014 @ 01:58 am
it's all just a waste, because in the end, we all die alone.

people lie. nobody really cares. 
 
 
Stephanie
04 March 2012 @ 03:10 am
i no longer use this journal. i had it deleted, but i reactivated it because livejournal has no easy to download all your entries. this journal has 6 years of my life that i can't just throw away.
 
 
Stephanie
23 August 2011 @ 09:15 am
I have no reason to live. I have nothing. Chris doesn't think I care about him or love him. I'm a terrible girlfriend and I make the wrong decisions, I do the wrong things. I have no freinds. Let's face it - yeah, my internet friends are nice but at the end of the day, I'm alone. I have nobody to hang out with, nobody to confied in. I have nobody I can trust, no one I can call my best friend. I have nothing because I am nothing. I'm broken beyond fixing, there is something wrong with me that I can't keep or make a friendship. 


Chris and I are basically done. He's been telling me for a better part of our relationshpi that I'm only with him because I'm "obessed" with him and that I just didn't know what a "good" relationship was until I found him. I love him but I can't convince him. 


He is all I had and now we're nothing. Our relationship is done, it's dissolved. I'm a terrible girlfriend, I can't do anything right. I'll amont to notihng in my life, I'm too stupid to get a degree, to get a decent job. This is it. I have nothing else. A mother who loves me too much and a boyfriend who doesn't love me at all. No friends, and a grandmother who thinks I'm a piece of shit.



What else is left? Nothing. 
 
 
Stephanie
29 July 2011 @ 10:27 am
 i am not stable right now. i feel so alone and lost. so... unimportant, so meaningless. hopeless. i just want to curl up and die. 
 
 
Stephanie
26 June 2008 @ 12:36 pm
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